Wednesday, November 19, 2014

My heart is so tired.


BCP. NTNP. TTC. DPO. TWW. CD1. TTTC. IUI. IVF. PUPO. KU.

     So many abbreviations. First you go off your Birth Control Pill. Then comes Not Trying Not Preventing. Then comes Trying To Conceive. You ovulate and now it's Days Post Ovulation. Then the Two Week Wait. Then Cycle Day 1. After a year you move on to Trouble Trying To Conceive. Then there's the IntraUterine Insemination. When that doesn't work, and if you have the money and your cycle doesn't get cancelled, it's on to In Vitro Fertilization. If you're lucky enough to be part of the 46%, then you're Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise. You might even get to be Knocked Up.

The acronym I never thought would apply to me:
CFNBC
child free, not by choice

I'll admit it.
When friends have told me that they were 'taking a break', accepting their childless status for the time being, I judged.
I thought to myself, "You're giving up? Really? I couldn't do that until I'd tried everything first."
I finally get it. I really do.
You can only subject your heart to so much.
So I guess for the time being this blog will simply be our lives, day to day.
Because that's what you do; you live.
One day at a time.




"We need never be ashamed of our tears."
Charles Dickens






2 comments:

  1. I love when you write. Constantly praying for you and Tyler, friend.

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  2. Don’t think of anything else just contact priest eka and purchase some of his herbal medication and your depression will go away. This was my state of mind when my doctor told me that i will not be able to concieve due to the Fibroid that was rolling in my family life and when i decide to reach out to the priest, and the priest told me what to do in other to get the medication. Eventually I receive all the Herbal medications that cure my Fibroid and give me the chance to become a proud mother: Eka is a great spiritualist, He did it for me, you can contact Eka on (dreka14demons@gmail.com). If you are suffering from the following gynecology disease::
    1. Fibroid, Asthma, All STD, sinus infection
    2.High Blood Pressure (herbs to reduce your BP within 7days)
    3. Infection, regular body pains (yeast infection),urine tract infection.
    4. Blockage from the fallopian Tube
    5. Cyst from the ovaries
    6. Unpleasant smell from the virginal, virginal itching
    7. Irregular menstruation
    8. Weakness of the penis (not able to have sex with your partner or inability to satisfy your partner sexually)
    9. Watering sperm (low sperm count) not able to get woman pregnant.
    10. Infertility for easy Conception.......
    11. Skin diseases, Toilet infection and bad body odor…….Etc..
    Simply contact the spiritualist DrEka on (dreka14demons@gmail.com) to get his Herbal Medication to cure your disease and put yourself on a motherhood side of life..

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